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There's only grace
 There's only love
There's only mercy and believe me
It's enough
Your sins are gone without a trace
There's nothing left now
There's only grace

God, my God,
I cry out, Your beloved needs You now
God be near, calm my fear,
And take my doubt
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes
to the Maker of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes
to the Calmer of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes
to the Healer of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes
Lift my eyes, to You

God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here
all I bring, is all of me

I will lift my eyes
to the Maker of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes
to the Calmer of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes
to the Healer of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes
Lift my eyes, to You

'Cause You are, and You were
And You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
'Cause You fashioned the earth
And You hold it together, God
So hold me now

She never slows down
She doesn’t know why
But she knows that when she’s all alone
It feels like it’s all coming down

She won’t turn around
The shadows are long
And she fears if she cries that first tear
The tears will not stop raining down

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

She won’t make a sound
Alone in this fight with herself
And the fear’s whispering
If she stands, she’ll fall down

She wants to be found
The only way out is through everything
She’s running from
Wants to give up and lie down

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
So stand in the rain
Stand your ground
Stand up when it’s all crashing down
You stand through the pain
You won’t drown
And one day what’s lost can be found
You stand in the rain

well, i got back from California on Sunday night, and i'm still under jet-lag.....I'm so freaking tired....i havn't really felt like updating in a while so that is why i havn't.  We left on Tuesday morning at 3:30 from the church, our flight was at 8:00 or 8:30, anyway by the time we got to California it was like
6 o'clock their time, 9:00 our time, or something like that, so we had been up for like 48 hours minus like 2-4 hours of sleep, so it's no wonder we were all so tired over there, but that didn't really stop us.....that night we divided into our groups, our group was divided into two, one went to Pasadena, and one went to compton: me, jimmy, stacy, katie, micah, evan, chad, dustin, bruce, eric, marsha, richie, john, jamie, and ummm.....oh! and stephen..i think that's all...we all went to Compton, everybody else went to Pasadena...each group went to their 'site' and went out and invited people to bring the kids to 'Camp Compton/Pasadena'....it was pretty neat b/c Hector, one of the guys that worked with our partner church, told us that normally no one is outside past like 5 b/c of i guess gang stuff, but that night there were so many kids outside, we got to invite so many people, it was unbelievable....over their we(white people) are the minority, it's mostly hispanic and african american over there...most of the hispanics did not know any english..their kids had to translate for us, but me and stacy got the opportunity to try and talk to people in spanish, i didn't do so hot, but i tried, and the lady understood me..i think...anyway, the next day we went back to Compton to set up for the camp for the day and i don't even remember how many kids we had but we had a view...me and marsha and katie were watching for these three girls in particular, Boo(Natasha) Crystal(Cynthia) and Channel, but i dont' know what her real name is...Boo and Crystal both came and Boo brought her younger brother Danny with her, all three of them came for the whole week, Channel came almost everyday but only for like the last 30 minutes, our compton group (all of the youth non of the leaders) got divided into different groups for 'character building time'...there were 4 options: puppets, drama, worship, and object lesson...to begin with i went to the object lesson, but it turned out that like 7 people from our group were in there, and nobody from our group was in worship, so marsha picked, me, katie, and evan to lead worship...hooray....to begin with i did not want to do that at all, but then the first day when we had to get up in front of the kids it didn't turn out so bad, other than that fact that we had to sing AND dance....that was kinda embarrasing, but oh well...by the end of the week, most of the kids wanted to come up and help us lead worship, it was so amazing, i wouldn't have traded that experience for anything, the day had finally come that we had to leave, sunday, i knew i would cry so much, me, stacy, and katie grew so close to Boo and Crystal, they both came to church on Sunday, we had to get up and go during the service b/c there service was like 4 hours long, and we didn't have that much time, but before we left we had like 45 minutes just hugging and loving allover those girls, i cried so hard....i hugged both of them, but it was so hard to let go...i just wanted to stay there and hold them...i miss them so much...before we left, during the service, stacy and i ended up giving Boo and Crystal our Bibles b/c neither of them had a Bible, as we drove off Boo and Crystal were sitting on the church steps just clinging to those Bibles...they looked so sad, it was like we were their family and we were leaving them all alone..just thinking about it makes me so sad...after we left that day we went to Hollywood, it was okay, it was a lot trashier than i thought it would be, well, this entry is getting really long, so i will finish talking about California some other time so for now bye

love
Jess

i left my  in compton 

hey everybody! it's been a while since i've updated so i figured that i should update.
not a whole lot has happened lately...i just got back from Indianapolis on Friday, i was up there for a whole week, it was a lot of fun, but it didn't seem like a week...
IYC is only 22 days away!!!! i'm so excited, but i am a little nervous about flying though, i've never flown before except in a helicopter and i was on too much medication to remember any of it though, so i guess that kinda doesn't count...
Sunday night was pretty boring..we did't do anything at the escape...everybody just sat around and talked...it was very boring..
well, i don't really know what else to talk about, so i'll talk to you later!
Love ya,
Jess

You say your every day
Is a bad dream that keeps repeatin'
Maybe you should've thought about that
When you were cheatin'

How do you like that furnished room
The bed, the chair, the table
The TV picture comes and goes
Too bad you don't have cable
How do you like that paper plate
And those pork 'n' beans you're eatin'
Maybe you should've thought about that
When you were cheatin'

How do you like that beat-up car
I think it's fair we traded
Your pick-up truck is running fine
It's a cozy ride for datin'
Yes, I've been out a time or two
And found the comfort I've been needin'
Maybe you should've thought about that
When you were cheatin'

You made your bed and you're out of mine
You lie awake and I sleep just fine
You've done your sowing
Now you can do your reaping
Maybe you should've thought about that
When you were cheatin'

What became of what's-her-name
After she spent all your money
Did she leave you like you left me
Sometimes life is funny
But I'll be glad to take you back
Just as soon as I stop breathing

Maybe you should've thought about that
Maybe you should've thought about that
Maybe you should've thought about that
When you were cheatin'
When you were cheatin'